Jodi Beth Cross

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Nothing!

I have nothing! As I sit here … waiting … thinking … praying … nothing. And sometimes life feels like that:
Our walk with God, our quiet times to read and pray … nothing.
Our relationships are maintaining and routine … nothing.
Our work either outside of the home or our kids … nothing.

There is nothing new and exciting about it. It’s not good or bad. It just is.

Let’s talk about the beauty and simplicity of that. Yes, we can get in a rut and may need to shake things up a bit. BUT what if what it looks and feels like nothing is really something?

What if it’s being faithful when we don’t feel like it?
What if it’s relying in what we know verses what we feel?
What if this is what maturity feels like?
What if this is consistency and stick-to-it-ness?
What if this is where we KNOW God loves us and we are no longer performing for His approval?
What if this is resting in who we are in Him?

When I think back on my early walk with God, my life as a young wife and mom, as a young pastor’s wife and all the other roles, I remember the turmoil of wanting to get it right and so many times not. The chaos in my mind and heart of trying to be what was expected and wanted by so many people. The constant pull to be more and do more.

What I feel now is knowing my value and worth is from God alone.
What I feel now is knowing my relationship with MY GOD is solid.
What I feel now is security, complete trust and love in my relationship with Dean.
What I feel now is contentment with my life and those that are in it.

When I think about God, I don’t see Someone running around heaven flapping Their arms in a panic. You know how we do when we are having company and the house is a mess. I see a God that set the heavens, earth and everything in it in an orderly fashion. He was never rushed when dealing with the weaknesses and shortcomings of Abe, David, Elijah, Paul, the Disciples, me, you.

He always leads with love!
He is consistent!
He is patient!
He is unmovable!
He never leaves or changes!
He is faithful!

When we feel nothing He is still there. Still showing up. Still leading. Still loving.

How awesome is that?! I don’t need to prove anything to Him today. I can just be!

Maybe today it’s OK to have nothing.
Maybe today we can just rest.
Maybe today I had something after all ~ and so do you!

Have an amazing, rest-filled-knowing-I-belong-to God-and-He’s-always-there-day!

All My Love ~
Jodi xoxo

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